Lara DeRita

You're not sorry.

2009-09-14T19:00:00.000-07:00

All this time

I was wasting

Hoping you would come around

I've been giving out chances every time

And all you do is let me down

And it's taking me this long

Baby but I figured you out

And you're thinking we'll be fine again

But not this time around

You don't have to call anymoreI won't pick up the phone

This is the last straw

Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can say that you're sorry

But I don't believe you baby

Like I did before

You're not sorry

Looking so innocent

I might believe you if I didn't know

Could've loved you all my life

If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold

And you got your share of secrets

And I'm tired of being last to know

And now you're asking me to listen

Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore

I won't pick up the phone

This is the last straw

Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can tell me that you're sorry

But I don't believe you baby

Like I did before

You're not sorry

You had me falling for you honey

And it never would've gone away,

You used to shine so bright

But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore

I won't pick up the phone

This is the last straw

There's nothing left to beg for

And you can tell me that you're sorry

But I don't believe you baby

Like I did before

You're not sorry

Come and Go.

2009-09-14T18:43:00.000-07:00

Some people come into our lives and quickly go.

Some people move our souls to dance.

They awaken us to new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom.

Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon.

They stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never ever the same.

At the end of the day when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody.

So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other is usually a load of bull.

So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by.

No matter how much we hurt them, the people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping. and sure, sometimes close can be too close.

But sometimes that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need.

Delhi.

2009-08-24T08:18:00.000-07:00

23/8/09-24/8/09

Depart SIN: 215pm

Arrive DEL: DEL 520pm so SIN 520pm

Flight: SQ 406

Depart DEL: DEL 1110pm so SIN 140am

Arrive SIN: 720am

Delhi was ok.

So many sari around.

Hahaha.

And flowers.

And many other things.

Didn't get to see any Bollywood stars.

LOL.

Dubai.

2009-08-16T21:01:00.000-07:00

16/8/09-20/8/09

Depart SIN: 1140pm

Arrive DXB: DXB 155am so SIN 855am

Flight: SQ 492

Depart DXB: DXB 1150pm so SIN 650am

Arrive SIN: 1120am

Flight: SQ493

Here I am in Dubai.

Freaking FIRE BURNING here.

37 degrees celsius, baby!

Wanted to go jalan-jalan...

But ended up back in the hotel room.

Couldn't take the heat.

OMG.

Ate Nasi Lemak.

Nasi Lemak in Dubai???!!!!

Yes,they do have it here

But, sadly

Not that tasty.

Fuck those bitches who bitch about me in Facebook.

U don't expect to track me down in 3500 cabin crew, right?

And you don't expect me to be so cheap

And tell the whole world that I'm an air stewardess working with Singapore Airlines.

So WHATEVER.

Love me

Hate me

Say what you want about me

I'm the least insulted.

Hahaha.

Laugh it out real LOUD.

Been Around The World.

2009-07-19T20:53:00.000-07:00

Ages since I blogg.

Been around the globe, enjoying life.

I just CAN'T STOP SHOPPING!

Somebody please stop me.

Haha.

Christchurch in NZ was AWESOME!

Fucking COLD.

-3 degrees....!!!

Never been this cold.

Got 9 pieces of clothes on me.

Yet cold.

Teeth gritters so badly each time I talk to Lauren.

Better shut up then.

Transformers=AWESOME!

2009-06-24T23:41:00.000-07:00

Who: Lara ft Mimi
Venue: The Cathay
Time: 430pm
Theme: Glamz

Transformers Revenge of the Fallen is AWESOME!
Hot babe. Hot Guys. Hot robots & machines. Bumblebee is just so adorable.
Mummy! I want Bumblebee!! Get me Bumblebee!!

-Lara DeRita.

Kompang, bitch and whatever that mattered.

2009-06-21T23:48:00.000-07:00

Attended a wedding.
It was quite grand.
But it’s not my type of wedding.
The theme at the wedding earlier was lime green with white as the base colour.
Somehow the bride and groom turned up in purple!
A bit messy.
So tak kena gitu lohhh…
Hubby looked super extremely lost when we arrived.
We actually know nobody there except for the bride.
The bride is hubby’s sec sch friend.
So young get hitched ready.
Yuck.
It won’t happen for me.
Hope nothing near.
Though I’m lost, I still got the cheek to control my vougeness.
Haha.
I know I’m HOT.
That’s why when I entered the wedding hall with hubby, a table of minah2 blondies turned and looked at me.
As if they were mesmerized by my beauty.
Ladies, PLEASE have some self-esteem.
Buck up!
Insecure for what?
Rest assure I’m not gonna snatch your dear bfs.
I mean if you want your bf not to look and smile at me,…
Please make an effort to doll up yourself lahhh.
Duhhhhhhh………
Back about the wedding, the food was OK.
I love the brownies!
Amazingly, hubby said he was full.
He ate a little only.
So not him lohhh.
Diet?
Maybe, who knows?
LOL.
Here’s the part that I truly dislike.
Hubby’s ex girlfriend turned up.
To make things worst, she wore same colour as me.
Yucks!
She’s super fair (but I’m still hotter)
Super talkative
Plumber than me
And the sight of her just makes me wanna say this:
WHATEVER BITCH! YOU DUMPED YOUR EX AND I’M THE LUCKY ONE TO GET HIM COS I’M SO MUCH HOTTER THAN YOU!

What the hell was I thinking?
Haha.
I don’t give a damn about her until my idiotic hubby ‘flirts’ with her.
And gave his number.
Without even she asking.
I was right behind my hubby!
WTF?!?!?
Btw, trust me I’m the least insecure here.
But I find it ridiculous to rekindle with someone who dumped and hurt you.

Sudden Urge

2009-06-21T20:19:00.000-07:00

Ive always been a flipflop or flats kind of girl. But yesterday in Perth at a departmental store, my eyes caught sight of a pair of leopad-prints killer pumps. I've always adore animal prints such as zebra & leopard prints. I was dying to get that pair but after much consideration, I decided not to purchase it. It's fine w me cos GSS is just round the corner!

The Wedding

2009-06-21T19:54:00.000-07:00

When: 21st June 2009
Venue: Yew Tee
Who: The Bride,Ida. The Groom,Iman.

Well, it was all lime green theme wedding. Nice but trust me still not up to my taste. No offence,folks! Check out the pics!

-Lara DeRita.

Battlefield

2009-06-19T17:23:00.000-07:00

Don't try to explain your mind

I know what's happening here

One minute, it's loveAnd, suddenly, it's like a battlefield

One word turns into a

Why is it the smallest things that tear us down

My world's nothing when you're gone

I'm out here without a shield

Can't go back, nowBoth hands tied behind my back for nothing, oh, no

These times when we climb so fast to fall, againWhy we gotta fall for it, now...

I never meant to start a war

You know, I never wanna hurt you

Don't even know we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield

Better go and get your armor (get your armor), get your armor (get your armor)

I guess you better go and get your armor (get your armor), get your armor (get your armor)

I guess you better go and get yourWe could pretend that we are friends, tonight (oh)

And, in the morning, we wake up, and we'd be alright

'Cause, baby, we don't have to fight

And I don't want this love to feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield

Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield

I guess you better go and get your armor...

Lara at her best.

2009-06-18T19:45:00.000-07:00

Why I never slows down?
Cos I’m unstoppable.
It’s easy for me to gain weight.
I’m not naturally a stick-thin girl.
I’m not heavy.
But I’m not skinny, either.
Everyone has it in them.
You know what’s so great?
I’ve made the choice.
Cos it does take effort-TO BE HAPPY.
I MEAN I AM HAPPY.
But it’s tough.
Sometimes you don’t want to be that way.
And holding all of that stuff in, holding the anger in and always being so composed….
It was so great for me to release everything.
Imagine!
I always have to be so put together.
I always have to be pleasane.
But, sometimes I want to scream and holler.
To release whatever pain and frustration that has built up in me.

Be Proud.

2009-06-16T19:22:00.000-07:00

SIA's air attendants, the Singapore girls, emates charm & friendliness. Extensive & distinctive advertising programs have been done to promote these attendants dressed in sarong-kebayas, the multi-coloured, ankle-length dresses designed by Paris coutierier, Balmain, and made from traditional batik fabric. These distinctively uniformed women have become the symbol of the airline's mission to deliver high-quality custs service. They have a very long-lasting impact on pax.

Yet, the best looking & most helpful Singapore Girl can evolve only in a modern aircraft with weel-equipped avionics facillities & after the management's painstaking training & restraining.

Lowest Point

2009-06-15T23:40:00.000-07:00

I could purchase the most gorgeous outfit, most trendiest bags, most beautiful shoes, most extraordinary cut of a statement accessories or whatever that I love.
I’m the most happy when I shop.
It’s an investment and also a therapy.
Killing two birds with a stone.
Heard of that?
Somehow, I realised that no amount of purchases could make me really content.
There’ll always be a moment where I have a breakdown.
And…
Today, I cried so hard that I felt like my life is coming to an end.
I’ve always tries my very best in providing people with happiness.
But, to them I’m always the black sheep around.
Swallowing is painful.
Crying makes it even unbearable.
Behind all these makeup, hair, accessories, outfits and smile…..
There’s a note: MY LIFE IS FULL OF DISAPPOINMENTS.
And today I’m at my lowest point, so broken and crush and I’m lost for words.
Simply BROKEN.

2009-06-14T19:28:00.000-07:00

I’ve never been one of those people who tries to make a statement by looking really scruffy and I find it very depressing if I happened to look as scruffy as if I have not even bothered to make an effort.
Today, I do look scruffy in Lot 1. Just a short trip there. I tend to bump into folks whenever I look scruffy.
How come,ehh?
Well, I bumped into Mdm Latifah, my sec sch Malay teacher.
She used to be flawless,that’s like 3 years or 4 years ago, and now wrinkled.
Not so much but yes I do see them now.
Sorry!
People do aged naturally, you see.
LOL.

Honeymoon

2009-06-02T23:24:00.000-07:00

Finally, we busy folks got time for honeymoon. Hehe. 26th months anniversary was on Sat & it was awesome! No more details. Private & Confidential. Period.

Cookie Hunting

2009-05-30T22:03:00.000-07:00

I've been eyeing Cookie since last Christmas. At last, I got it! But it costs me 300 bucks for damn cookie. In case you're lost, Cookie refers to LG KP 500 Cookie! Hahahah. Dun be deceive, folks! Well...I wanted a black colour one but the stpid salesperson gave me a valkrie brown with red lining at the side. Trust me in looks nothing like brown. I only realise it was brown after few days of ownership! It's ok,I'm still in love with it. Someone will kill me if I say I don't like it. Hahaha. Cos I drag dear along. Hehehe.

Honoured

2009-05-28T20:55:00.000-07:00

Who: Nisa & me.

What: Nisa's Graduation Ceremony

When: 28 May 2009

Venue: NYP Auditorium

Felt soooooooo honoured abt attending Nisa's grad ceremony. Her family couldn't make it for her big day so she chose me to share her happy moments. I felt like tearing when I saw her receiving her cert(though it was faux!). We've grown up so fast. =)